I am officially over my bah humbug spirit and am now excited for our Christmas festivities, which will make for a very interesting and long weekend.
I’ve done the math and we have eight Christmas parties to attend this weekend with two of the days having each meal at a different house.
While this is going to be a very long weekend and I am dreading Carter’s reaction to everything after the limited sleep he will have, I am generally excited about all of the festivities. Especially the rommegrot, lefse and lutefisk that is bound to be at some of these parties.
Yes I actually eat lutefisk and enjoy eating it. For me it brings back a lot of good memories when my grandpa and grandma would pick me up and take me to a lutefisk dinner at a church somewhere.
It is at Christmas time that I have a lot of fond memories like this, as I am sure many of you do as well. I think it is what makes Christmas so special and yet so hard for many people.
While this memory for me is a fond one, it also brings sadness because my grandpa is no longer with us. He is no longer sitting there at the Christmas table eating lutefisk with the rest of us.
It is at Christmas time that we miss those near and dear to our hearts the most, often grieving about it when we have a free minute between all of the hustle and bustle.
Sometimes I wonder if we don’t create all of this hustle and bustle just to stop the grieving during this time. I know I do.
Despite creating all of this hustle and bustle, I know I am still going to have a hard time as memories come flooding back throughout the weekend.
After all it is on this Christmas that I am remembering my two grandpas that are no longer with us and our foster daughter that is in a different state.
Despite this sadness and longing for these family members to still be here, there is something about these memories and the many others from Christmas time that get me excited about Christmas to pull me past this heartache.
My past Christmas memories are getting me excited about the new memories I am going to make during this Christmas.
I am overjoyed that I get to spend another Christmas with Carter and Steph. I am overjoyed that my sister is now recovering from her illness and can enjoy Christmas. I am overjoyed that I get to see many of my family members that I don’t often see throughout the year.
It is the possibility of these new memories that get me excited for this Christmas. Whether it is seeing someone’s face when they open a present or getting to have a good conversation with someone that I haven’t seen in a while, I know this weekend is going to be full of opportunities to make memories.
I hope your Christmas is full of memories and that you will have a Merry Christmas celebrating with your family.